Whispers and Lies Page 22

  “You think he’s my brother,” Alison said.

  Lance’s knuckles moved to the base of my toes, kneeding my calloused flesh, manipulating my muscles as easily as Alison manipulated my emotions.

  “He’s not my brother.”

  My husband used to give the best foot massages. It’s probably why I married him. Certainly it would explain why I kept going back to him. He had the best hands. Once he started massaging my feet, I was a goner.

  “He’s your husband,” I said, my voice free of inflection. Why hadn’t I realized it earlier? Why had it taken me so long to figure out what should have been obvious all along?

  “Ex-husband,” Alison qualified.

  “Lance Palmay,” he said, extending his right hand. “Pleasure to meet you.”

  I ignored him, concentrated on Alison. “You lied to me,” I said, stating the obvious. “Why?”

  “I’m so sorry. I didn’t know what else to do.”

  “Have you ever heard of the truth?” I reclaimed my foot from Lance’s grasp, pushed past him toward my closet, where I threw a robe over my nightgown, drew it tight around me. Never had I felt more vulnerable, more exposed.

  “I wanted to tell you the truth,” Alison protested, “but I was afraid.”

  “Afraid of what exactly?”

  “Afraid you’d think I was some stupid, weak-willed bimbo who falls to pieces every time her no-good ex-husband shows up.”

  “Hey—” Lance interrupted.

  “I wanted you to think well of me. I wanted you to like me.”

  “By lying to me?”

  “It was stupid. I can see that now. But—”

  “It seemed like a good idea at the time?” Lance interjected.

  “Shut up, Lance.”

  “You’re sure that’s his real name?” I said.

  Alison looked stricken, as if I’d slapped her across the face. “I phoned him after Thanksgiving. You were after me to call my family.…”

  “You’re saying this is my fault?”

  “No, of course not. I’m just saying that in a moment of weakness, I called Lance and told him where I was. I didn’t know he’d come to Florida. Or maybe I did. I don’t know. I only know that when he showed up at my door, I couldn’t help myself. He promised he’d only stay a few days. And I didn’t want to upset you. I knew your rules about no roommates. I knew how skittish you were. Skittish,” she repeated softly, smiling hopefully at me. “Good word.”

  I felt a familiar tug, the unwanted urge to take her in my arms and reassure her everything was going to be all right. God, I was as bad where she was concerned as she was with regard to her former husband. If he was her former husband, I thought, wondering why I should believe anything she said. Alison changed stories as easily as she changed clothes. What made me think she wasn’t lying to me now?

  “So I lied to you,” Alison continued, as if reading my thoughts, “told you Lance was my brother. It just seemed easier that way.”

  “You don’t have a brother,” I stated more than asked.

  “No, I do,” Alison said quickly. “I do,” she repeated unnecessarily, looking toward the floor, as if afraid to let me see her face.

  “There’s something you’re not telling me.”

  “No. Nothing. I’ve told you everything.”

  She was lying. I knew it, and she knew I did. It was the reason she couldn’t look me in the eye.

  “I thought we were friends,” I said weakly, not sure what else to say.

  “We are friends,” she pleaded.

  “Friends don’t lie to each other. They don’t keep secrets. They don’t have hidden agendas.”

  Alison’s eyes shot to mine. For a second it looked as if she were about to break down and tell me everything, reveal the whole ugly truth of what she was really up to, confess her part in last night’s mayhem, unravel the entire charade. But she said nothing, and the moment passed.

  “I think you should leave now,” I told her.

  She nodded, turned to go. “I’ll call you later.”

  “No, you don’t understand. I want you to leave—for good.”

  “What?”

  “I want you out of here.”

  “You can’t mean that.”

  “Hey, Terry,” Lance interjected. “Don’t you think you’re overreacting?”

  “Was I overreacting last night when you tried to kill me?” I shot back.

  “What!” Lance said.

  “What!” Alison echoed.

  “What the hell are you talking about?” The look Lance gave me was equal parts amusement and fury. “You’re out of your fucking mind. You know that, lady?”

  “I want you out of my cottage,” I insisted. “Out of my life.”

  “No, please,” Alison cried.

  “I’ll give you till the end of the day,” I said.

  “But that’s so unfair.”

  “I think the law says you’ve got to give us at least a month’s notice,” Lance said lazily. “And I don’t know about you, Terry, but I don’t react too well to ultimatums.”

  “If you don’t leave, I’ll call the police. How’s that for an ultimatum?”

  “Pretty lame,” Lance said. “Think you better call your lawyer too.”

  “Lance will be gone within the hour,” Alison said forcefully.

  “What!” Lance exclaimed. “You can’t be serious.”

  “Just go,” Alison told him, her eyes never leaving mine. “Now.”

  Lance shifted uneasily from one foot to the other, his hands slapping his sides in frustration. Then he stormed from the room,

  “If you could just give me a few days to find another place,” Alison said softly, “I promise I’ll be out of your hair, if that’s what you still want.”

  In truth, I didn’t know what I wanted. Part of me wanted Alison gone immediately; part of me wanted her to stay. I said nothing for several seconds, waiting for her to fill in the empty spaces, the way she usually did, to offer even a semiplausible explanation I could latch onto. Even after everything that had happened, I was still looking for a reason to believe her.

  “Fine.” I spit out the word as if it were a piece of rotten meat. “You have till the weekend. If you’re not gone by then, I’ll call the authorities.”

  “Thank you.” Alison breathed a deep sigh of relief. Then she spun around, her face disappearing inside a blur of strawberry curls. I heard her footsteps retreating down the stairs, the kitchen door opening and slamming shut. I watched her from the bedroom window as she ran toward the cottage, then stopped, turned back toward the house. I thought I saw her smile.

  TWENTY-TWO

  I didn’t see Alison at all during the next several days. Nor did I see Lance, although I doubted he was really gone. I knew the matter was far from resolved, that they weren’t likely to leave empty-handed, not with all the time and effort invested in me so far. I lay in bed that first night trying to figure out how much of what Alison had told me was true, wondering where the lies ended and the truth began, if indeed there’d been any truth to anything she’d said. Ever.

  What difference did the truth make anyway?

  Looking back, I see that Alison’s great gift was her uncanny ability to make me doubt myself, to make me question what was beyond question, to make me see things that weren’t really there.

  To not see things that were.

  In spite of everything, I had to keep reminding my—self that Alison was not the sweet young woman I’d welcomed into my life, but a liar, a con artist, and quite possibly, a cold-blooded killer. I wasn’t her friend—I was her target, a carefully selected one at that. And judging by what I’d read in her journal, I wasn’t the first unsuspecting woman she’d duped. What had happened to the others?

  And why?

  That was the part I couldn’t get past, the part that kept me awake at night, tossing restlessly back and forth in my bed. Not when Alison and her cohorts might strike again, but why?

  Why?

  W
hat was she after?

  What do you want from me? I should have demanded of her. Why did you seek me out, work so hard to make me your friend? What is it you think I have that’s of any value?

  What was the point?

  What do you mean? would have come her inevitable response, green eyes wide with confusion, expressive hands aflutter. I don’t know what you’re talking about.

  In my lighter moments, I told myself I was out of danger, that by confronting Alison and ordering her to vacate the premises, by threatening to call the police if she wasn’t gone by the end of the week, I’d effectively put the kibosh to her little scheme. But in my darker moments, I recognized that the only thing I’d accomplished was a slight delay, a modest retooling of her plans, that Alison was simply biding her time, waiting for just the right moment to come at me again.

  At any rate, several days passed without further incident. Alison made no further attempts to talk to me; the white Lincoln disappeared from my street. I went to work, tended to my patients, and almost managed to convince myself that the worst was over.

  On the morning of January 4, I was getting ready for work when the phone rang. I knew that Josh had returned from California the night before, and I’d been eagerly anticipating his call all morning. I glanced in the mirror over my dresser, trying to see myself through Josh’s eyes, noting the cut Alison had given me was growing out and I was in need of a trim. Impatiently pushing my hair behind my ears, I pinched my cheeks to give them needed color, then walked to the phone and, not wanting to appear too anxious, waited one more ring before answering it. “Hello,” I said huskily, as if freshly roused from sleep, although I’d been up for hours.

  “Erica says to wish you a happy New Year,” the voice announced.

  “Go to hell!” I shot back, about to hang up the phone.

  “I believe you have something that belongs to her,” the voice continued, undeterred.

  “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

  “I think you do.”

  “You’re wrong. I have no idea what you want.”

  “She’d like it back.”

  “Like what back?” I felt the line go dead in my hands. “Wait! What do you mean, I have something of Erica’s? Wait!” I continued shouting long after I knew the caller had hung up.

  What could I possibly have of Erica’s?

  The necklace, I realized with a start. The heart-shaped pendant Alison had found beneath her bed and worn proudly around her neck, until I’d bought her one all her own. But it couldn’t be worth more than a few hundred dollars, and Erica owed me far more than that in back rent. Erica had never struck me as the sentimental type. But then I was a lousy judge of character, I reminded myself. Look how easily I’d allowed myself to be duped by Alison.

  My mind was racing, thoughts crashing into one another, like ocean waves. What was Erica’s connection to Alison? Had Erica left behind more than the necklace, something valuable she’d hidden inside the cottage? And was that something the reason Alison had shown up on my doorstep, gone out of her way to befriend me? What did she think I had?

  “Good God,” I said, my head swimming as I grabbed my purse and ran down the stairs and out the front door. Did I really think Alison had any intention of vacating my cottage by the end of the week? That she and Lance would depart empty-handed?

  I stood paralyzed by the side of my car, not knowing what to do, knowing only that time was running out, that I couldn’t continue to stay in my house, that I had to talk to someone.

  I had to talk to Josh.

  I returned to the house, full of fresh resolve, locking the door behind me and marching purposefully to the phone in the kitchen. I punched in the familiar numbers, then waited while the phone rang once, twice, three times, before someone picked it up.

  “Fourth-floor nurses’ station. Margot speaking.”

  “Margot, it’s Terry.” There was desperation in my voice, as if someone had pushed it from a high ledge.

  “What’s the matter? You sound awful.”

  “I don’t think I can come in today.”

  “Don’t tell me you’ve got that horrible flu bug that’s making the rounds.”

  “I don’t know. Maybe. Can you manage without me?”

  “Guess we’ll have to. Don’t want you coming in sick.”

  “I’m so sorry. It just hit all of a sudden.”

  “That’s how these things work.”

  “I felt fine last night,” I embellished, knowing I should stop while I was ahead, that the more lies I told, the more likely I was to trip myself up. Wasn’t that what had happened to Alison?

  “Well, get back into bed, take two Tylenol, and drink plenty of fluids. You know the routine.”

  “I feel really bad about this.”

  “Just feel better,” Margot instructed.

  I raced up the stairs to my bedroom, where I swapped my nurse’s uniform for a pair of navy pants and matching jersey. I packed the uniform, along with another change of clothes and some underwear, into the large overnight bag I kept at the back of my closet. I wasn’t sure how long I’d be gone, or where I’d be staying, but one thing was now crystal clear—I couldn’t stay here.

  Would Josh insist I stay at his place? I wondered, throwing in my yellow dress with the plunging neckline, in case he suggested somewhere nice for dinner. Or maybe I’d stay in one of those funky little art deco hotels in South Beach. Maybe Josh would stay with me, I projected giddily, opening the bottom drawer of my dresser and removing the slinky, lavender nightgown Lance had given me for Christmas. I tossed it into the bag, thinking how ironic it would be to wear a gift from my would-be killer to a tryst with my would-be lover, recognizing I was beyond giddy and was now verging on outright hysteria.

  I took a series of long, deep breaths, trying to calm myself down. I knew I was behaving foolishly, even irrationally. But it was as if, in finally deciding to take action, I’d unleashed a part of me I’d repressed for far too long—the part that was determined to enjoy life, take risks, have fun. The part that was tired of being surrounded by death. The part that wanted to live.

  I finished packing, debated whether to call Josh, tell him I was coming, then decided to surprise him instead. I told myself I didn’t have time for unnecessary phone calls, but maybe I was just afraid he’d tell me not to come, that he was too busy to see me. And I couldn’t risk that. I needed Josh to be there for me.

  I was at the car when I realized I’d left my nurse’s shoes on the floor by the bed. I knew I’d need them if I chose to return to work the next day. So I tossed my overnight bag into the backseat and reluctantly returned to the house, taking the stairs two at a time. I was doubled over and gasping for air when I reached my bedroom and saw my shoes standing by the foot of the bed, as if waiting for me. I was leaving the room when a cursory glance out the bedroom window revealed Alison emerging from the cottage.

  I raced downstairs, coming to an abrupt halt at my front door, fighting to catch my breath. I couldn’t appear panicky. It was imperative everything appear normal. Alison couldn’t suspect I was poised to take flight.

  “Going somewhere?” she asked, waiting by the side of my car, her head tilting toward the overnight bag on the backseat.

  “I joined a gym. Thought I’d work out before going to the hospital.” I held up my nurse’s shoes for added credibility.

  She seemed to accept my explanation. “Terry—”

  “I’m going to be late.” I opened the car door, threw my shoes inside, walked around to the driver’s side of the car.

  “Please, I need to talk to you.”

  “Really, Alison, I don’t see the point.”

  “Just hear me out. Then, if you still want me to leave, I will. I promise.”

  “I’ve already rented out the cottage,” I told her, watching her eyes widen in alarm. “A nurse at the hospital. She’s moving in on Saturday.”

  Alison’s head snapped toward the cottage. A gasp caught in her throat.


  “Look,” I backtracked, suddenly afraid she might try to restrain me if she thought she’d run out of time. “If you really want to talk, we’ll do it when I get home from work.”

  Relief flooded Alison’s face. “That’d be great.”

  “It might be quite late.”

  “That’s fine. I’ll wait up.”

  “Okay.” I climbed into the car and started the engine. “I’ll see you later.”

  “Later,” she agreed, tapping on the hood of the car as I backed out of the driveway.

  Later, I thought.

  * * *

  I’M NOT SURE WHY I CHOSE I-95 over the turnpike. Always take the turnpike, I recalled Myra Wylie’s advice to her son. You get in an accident on 95 and you can be stuck all day.

  Which was exactly what was happening, I realized, opening my window and craning my neck to see what was causing the prolonged delay. But all I saw were long lines of cars, like brightly colored snakes, stalled and going nowhere. “God, get me out of here,” I whispered, flicking the dials of the car radio, trying to find a traffic report. “I don’t have time for this.”

  I heard Alan Jackson singing about lost love on one station, and Janet Jackson singing about finding it on another. Maybe it was the same love, I thought, a laugh catching in my throat. Maybe Alan and Janet Jackson were brother and sister. Or husband and wife. Just like Alison and Lance. I laughed out loud, catching the worried glance of the driver in the car beside me.

  “I am not going to think about Alison,” I whispered through barely parted lips, then flipped to another station, listening as a male announcer swapped inane banter with his female counterpart.

  “So, Cathy, how many New Year’s resolutions have you broken so far?”

  “I never make New Year’s resolutions, Dave.”

  “Why, Cathy?”

  “Because I always break them.”

  I flipped to another station. “A four-car collision just south of the exit to Broward Boulevard is holding up traffic on I-95,” the newscaster announced with the practiced calm of someone used to detailing disasters. “Ambulances are on the scene—”